I think its because my ex always trys to get incontact with me around this time, from jan to may is always the worst. The last time he should of gotten the think, he never does though. Leave me be, I broke it off years around i dont ever want you again. The worst thing about it all, is that I still let it get to me all the time. I fucking hate him, I really do.
Messed up on my hair and now i have this hair color
but instead im able to drink in my house with my sad so-called best friend and listen to her bitch about her ex-boyfriend.
urgh, why am i such a good friend to such shitty people?
hahaha that sounds funny, but i finally had my first date, well i think it was my first date cause he bought me food but we’re just friends(that have a little fun from time to time?). It was nice, having someone bring me out to lunch and pay for it; i wasnt going to eat but he didnt want to eat alone. He left today to NOLA and i feel bad that we didnt really get to hangout much before he left, though no one really knew he was leaving until that day.
other news
today I had to put my dog down, and i havent stop crying since. I loved this dog more then anything in the whole world. She was my sunshine on a rainy day, my cuddle bug when life wasnt going too swell, I’d take her over to my sisters appt when she moved out so i didnt halfto leave her alone. I was with her the moment she was born to the moment she died.
I woke up this morning to both of my living rooms covered in this gross body dishcharge that has been coming out of her for the past 5 days. I was hoping that she’d be better by now but she hasnt been, it just gets worse and worse. Shes shaking all the time, barely can walk, and hasnt eaten in the past week either. This is probably the hardest thing I’ll ever halfto deal with, and it fucking sucks.
So my sister is planing on canceling our cell phone plans come next year, and I cant decide if i was to go to an try my own plan myself or just do pre-paid and deal with it that way. I do want to move out next year(maybe, just for a little bit if not offically) I just still havent finished all that I need to do yet.. plus the fact some kid kindof put my hopes down of moving out so dontknow, thats a total different story.
