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Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy

What makes me different from everyone else is I’m real to who I am. Most people will change who they are, or their outlook on life just to please someone but I wont. I am who I am and that’s all. I will tell you when your hair looks bad, you have something in your teeth, or even if your just wrong on what your talking about. I will always have my friends back no matter what the fight is; and even if I fight with a friend if I know I was in the wrong I will alopogies once the waters have cooled down. I’ll never walk out on someone if they need me either, Im there for the long run and that’s something a lot of people cant say. Last thing I can say what makes me different from everyone else is that I honestly dont care, bad as it sounds its the truth.

The feeling of needing someone, weird as it sounds but let me explain. The feeling when your away for so long and then you see that person, the person who completes you, how you need them next to you right by you, holding you, touching you, feeling what you feel, that kind of feeling. That feeling when you get home and you see their name on your phone, and you get the feeling through your body that you need them there to be with you even if its just a minute.

Dear Mom and Dad,

I hope I turned out somewhat how you hoped I be. I’m sorry if I dont seem to let you guys in my life, its just I dont really let many in my life. I hope that you guys are proud of me, cause that’s all I’ve ever wanted from you two. Is just to be proud of me. I know you guys weren’t happy with my choice to dropped out of school, but I promise you I will go somewhere with my life. I will go back to school, and finish what I need to finish. I’ve made some stupid decisions in the past, but I’ve learn from them and I’ve become stronger from them as well. Sorry for such a short letter, but I do tell you guys as much as Im willing to tell you. I love you both very much, and I dont know what I’d do without you two in my life
Love Always Jerica

Well now lets see I have:

Boo-bear: this one was giving to me when I was really young because I used to get cuts and bruises all over my body and I have great big bear hugs

jer-bear: basically the same as the one above just I grew up and stop getting as much cuts

jerry girl: Sean gave me this one, not sure as to why guess its cause my name is jerica(so jerry would be short for it) and I’m a girl lol

jurika: Dunno, Alex just calls me at

Jurrecka: again Dunno, Skippy and a few others call me it. I love it though, one of my favorite nick names

Eureka: cause my old ASSNT MNGR used to say I was like magic, dontknow weirdo lol

and lastly

Jer: cause people are lazy and cant say jerica lol

Arynn, He just gets me, plain and simple. When we first basically sight eyes on each other, I knew from that day on we’d always be there for each other. And it’s true, we have been. He came into my life when I really needed someone just to be there for me. Right after mine and Codey’s breakup, life wasn’t so easy to get back together because I lost who I was. Arynn, in a weird way ,helped me find myself again. He was there to listen to my thought, give input, and tell me his as well. He’s someone I could see myself being with or even marrying in the future.(wow such a weird challenge, haha)

PLANS:

to get my GED and start going to BCC and stay at school for 2 years so I can get my  resume in order to be a flight attendent.

OR

Go to bar-tending school and start applying at pubs/bars/restaurants as a bar-back so I can get my experience up so soon I can start bar-tending.

DREAMS:

My dreams would to be to move to the country get a two-story house with a wrap around porch, with a huge yard with all different types of kustoms that would be all mine. My house would be white, with black shutters and I’d have two black rocking chairs out front so I can sip my drink of choice and if anyone got on my property I’d have my shotgun right next to me to get them the hell off my property. Also so when I get home from a long trip, I can go to the country and relax with no one around me at all.

GOALS:

1. to get my GED by the END of this year
2. to get myself ready for bcc classes
3. get the fleetline up and running by my birthday
4. on my birthday finally get my Medusa tattoo(and my other ones fixed)
5. get myself to be at least 115(120 would be really nice though)
6. stop cutting my hair(unless its a trim)
7. get myself wax(VERY NERVOUS ABOUT IT!!)
8. learn more about film camera(since I have TWO of them lol)

What I love:

1. The sand between my toes when its nice and hot
2. reading a really good book
3. manners manners manners
4. organizing/cleaning
5. freezing cold water on my back
6. that moment when your about to fall asleep
7. the cocktail gorgeous on cold nights
8. white sheets
9. when your phone knows who you were looking for through your  phone book
10. Mucho Mango with rum mixed together
11. when my horoscope is right on the ball
12. not giving a shit about anything
13. being praised for doing something good
14. when an old friend comes back into your life
15. good morning kisses
16. cuddling, spooning, and all the mushy gushy shit
17. writing letters
18. when a song comes on that describes your mood
19. watching movies at night
20. quoting Disney movies and not being made fun of for it
21. smoking a joint
22. PBR with a cheeseburger
23. loud engines
24. nice classic cars
25. talking to someone who knows their shit
26. Sarcasm 
27. sex
28. deep conversation in the car
29. holding hands
30. satin nighties
31. lingerie
32. pin-ups
33. film photos 
34. saying shit right after fuck
35. being an aunt
36. swinging at playgrounds
37. playing mario games
38. doing my own hair
39. discovering new things
40. those good days where you do your hair just right, your make-up perfect, your outfit is all together and your just feel good
41. painting your nails
42. Knowing that your loved even when your showing your worst

Wow, I have no clue who’s life I would want to switch with for a day. This seems to be really hard for me. I don’t usually day dream about being someone else, I’m pretty content with my life and How it is. I guess I’d chose Bettie Page, only cause I fucking love her. No real true blue reason, but that is how it goes.

EDIT: So after thinking about it for awhile It’s going to be Sabina Kelley. One cause she’s fucking GORGEOUS and two cause she’s a burlesque dancer(which is something I’d like to look into in the future maybe)

Favorite Photo By Far.

1. Open your library (iTunes, Winamp, Media Player, iPod, etc).
2. Put it on shuffle.
3. Press play.
4. For the first question, type the song that’s playing.
5. When you go to a new question, press the next button TWICE.
6. Don’t lie and try to pretend you’re cool…just type it in man!


IF YOUR LIFE WAS A MOVIE WHAT WOULD THE SOUNDTRACK BE?

Opening Credits:  Bloodstains By Agent Orange

Waking Up: Big River By Johnny Cash

First Day at School: Parting Of the Sensory By Modest Mouse

Falling in Love: Born to Die By LOC

Losing Virginity: I Don’t Mind By Buzzcocks

Fight Song: I against I By Bad Brains

Breaking Up: At My Job By Dead Kennedys

Prom: Rocking Around with Ollie Vee By Buddy Holly

Life:  Get Out! by Sublime

Mental Breakdown: (she’s) Sexy and 17 By stray Cats(wtf kind of breakdown is that?)

Driving: Jesus was an Only Child By Modest Mouse

Flashback: Moonshine By Dancing Knuckles

Getting Back Together: The Hunch By Hasil Adkins

Wedding: Sleeping In By Postal Service

Birth of Child: Ugly Woman By Hasil Adkins

Final Battle: Tomb Diggin Shovels By The Mad Conductor

Death Scene: Suspicion By Elvis Presley

Funeral Song: When I get Up By Tegan and Sarah

1. I Won’t Back Down- Johnny Cash
2. Donnio Boogie- Hasil Adkins
3. Crazy- Wanda Jackson
4. Spitting Venom- Modest Mouse
5. Crying The Chapel- Elvis Presley
6. Richie Daggers Crime- The Germs
7. Moody Blue- Elvis Presley
8. No Shoes- Hasil Adkins
9. Let’s Have A Party- Wanda Jackson
10. Lullabye/Chuck- Blatz

So I dont have A picture of my whole family together, so heres a bunch of pictures of my family.

My mom and My dad

Tomiko and Darla

My (Not By blood) family

Taylor

Logan, Maggie, and Jace

Dear __________,

I don’t know what it is about you, or why I even try; but there’s something there that I want yet I know I cant have. Why must you always play mind games with me, or is that just my imagination? Why couldn’t you just have been like all the others, had your fun and left it like that? You just had to ask questions, about me, about my family, about everything. NO! it wasn’t supposed to be that way, I wasn’t supposed to fall, I wasn’t supposed to fall into your dirty mind tricks. Oh but I did, how hard I did. Yet you keep doing it to me, little hints here and there. Showing me that you still care, that there’s something still there. There’s always going to be her, or her, or even HER right there with it all. The past is the past, yet yours always your future.  I wish you weren’t such an asshole, or you were such an asshole. I would of been better off without you ever in my life; but now your stuck being apart of my life, I just cant seem to leave in the past. You were my past, and now my future; yet you were never really my past, nor ever my future. Every time I see you I want to kiss you, hold you, just be next to you; yet I act as though I hate you, I never want to see you. Why you always wonder, why am i so upset, why do I look like I’m having a bad time? Cause, I know I’ll never have you. Your nothing that I have ever wanted, and your all that I ever wanted all at the same time. Your my poison, and sooner or later I’m not going to be able to take it anymore. So I wish you far well, even though it’ll never become true. You’ll be missed, you’ll be loved, one day. You’ll learn what real feelings are, not just hate and  despair.